Welcome to my World of Lost Love

There Was a time when I was all lost & alone,
Until you came & made me your own !!
Now why did you leave me & go??
Did you have to do so...????

There you are, away from me so far,
Passing by, like a shooting star !!
When I see U from a distance, that is how i react,
And believe it or not, this is a fact !!

Of yours, a small glance,
Makes my heart dance !!
How I wish you were here with me,
Just the way, you once used to be !!

Why couldn't that moment last forever??
Don't know about u, but I don't feel any better !!
And now my world has turned black,
As I'm nevergoing to get you back !!

You know, you are my loss,
And I still didn't figure out the cause !!
Was it my mistake??
Or was your love fake????

Whenever you were there, the way I felt...
It was like, then & there, I would melt !!
I can't forget you & thats the biggest pain I'm going through,
Or maybe I don't want to forget you coz its sumthing i really can't do !!

Those days when you were mine,
Was the feeling of reaching cloud nine !!
How i wish, you're still there,
To give me all the love & care !!

Now that everything has turned different,
No more with this pain, I want to stay innocent !!
Today, the way you treat me is all negative,
But I guess I'm real crazy to take it all positive !!

Even though you treat me like trash,
I would still treat you like my own cash !!
Maybe its you who'z the waste,
But somehow you're still my taste !!

You have taken all my happiness with you...Why??
Did you just want to leave me to cry????
Don't I have the right to be happy again??
And what did you gain by giving me all this pain????

Existing are the memories,
Still fresh like the morning breeze !!
Now, you are my past,
But Hey, you're still the one I'll love till the last !!

Even today, for me you're still 'The BEST',
Among the rest !!
And my endless love for you,
Will always remain TRUE !!

♥♥♥By:~ Dev~♥♥♥

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

A Letter to my love...



***************,

It was surprising that you asked me to write a letter, actually I was thinking about the same for last few months.
You may say mere coincidence but I will say surprise package of 2013.....

To write and what to write is most important. I tried writing to you but nothing is helping me to write something heart out.
Many letters I had typed but all in vain but at last now, mean around 5am with sun is about to rise...my writing actually dawned....I don't know whether I am making any sense to you or not but hope you understand my inability of writing which can bring smile on your face...

I know you are laughing at me and my foolishness but still I cannot stop my emotions to come out...though I know there is no value to emotions in anyone’s life...though I don't see you in the bitchy girls clan.....

You know I started becoming very nostalgic.....
Digitex...still remember the first sight and your soft touch... (Lake Kalibarir prosad which I gave you)
I was kind of shaky after seeing...your dreamy eyes made me see the dream...leave it I know its too much melodramatic and you are simply laughing...still I am happy that I made you laugh at least  which I want to do forever and ever....Forever...lol..too hard for you to see yourself with me or what?? I know you don't...

I remember the first time I met you, it was one of the best moments of my life and I thank god for giving me such a exquisite moment. When I saw you, a thoroughly rough with severe attitude problem especially spoil brat.....slowly I got to know an angel but a quiet lady though I think you are a chatter box who seemed to be in a similar plight, something out of this world, some force of attraction gave me the courage and initiative to approach you. I couldn't understand it then, but I am glad that I did talk to you then.(Silver Sand..)

I've been waiting to say all these and even more to you since a long time. It might surprise you that I accepted your wish writing to you; but you know, sometimes where there is too much to say, a man prefers writing to all else so do I.

You know, ours is a very special relationship. We both know how hopelessly we're in need for each other without ever saying so. Its been tacitly accepted by both of us without feeling the need to express anything poetically or melodramatically.

Like a sparkling crystal vase, you are delicate, fragile and just precious to me. Trust me people must say this when he is trying for you..but I...you know better...The dark, deep eyes set in contrast to the fair face have the depth and gleam that makes me drown myself in them. I love to fight with you and hate you every second and don't wanna miss your kiddish nature.

I couldn't understand why you were not special to me in my time? But the time we spent together was so enchanting that each moment without you is like epoch. I only know how difficult it was for me to restrain myself from rushing away from you so that you be saved...lol...and to concentrate on my work.

Good good...hasle yaar...aaj tujhe chance mila hain...
In fact, whenever this tension had reached the crescendo, I called you up half-afraid that you would be angry over my disturbing you so as not to miss a chance to talk to you....

There was something else about you, though you were not readily homely types. Yet you seemed to tell me everything about you, your home, family, your x..asses and axes and your naive feelings about them and work. I was your emotional support which I hope so...lol...and seemed to occupy a unique and special place in your heart of hatred for me....lol..... When you cried out your grief’s and sorrows into my bosom, the feeling of my being close to you, engulfing you in my arms seemed to make you feel safe and secure where you use to get pissed drunk. I felt extremely happy and proud to give you this support and comfort because I knew you need this...hope you actually needed.....

And somewhere along the way, I opened up without even realizing so and anything that made me happy or sad, I couldn't wait to share it with you. We both knew it when we slowly developed this deep and intellectual insanity. It was so enchanting and it completely pulled us into this whirling center.

It gives me a great pride to show the world how madly I am in ???? with you my petite delicate bitch. I am immensely satisfied that I care for a girl who makes me lose myself in her arms. My cherished moments are our long walks under the pocha garom during 2012 summer from infinity to 206 bus stand(kheya)....you were not well...though didn't stop for a second..and I walked with you for many many moonlit nights, under the clouds of my world with you and the soothing gaze of the stars. I'm madly in hatred with a girl...lol... who completely amalgamates herself with me. I love the way she sparkles at my achievements, and the sheer delight that creeps through her when she is swept of her feet. I like that most special lady in the world... Oh! I need you, my sweet heart kinky bitch...waiting for your ph# call...because I know u will never write but you will call preferably, since you gotta chance to bitch about me in front of me...... Pleasure making you smile.

 Most Unfaithful
 Most Unreliable
 Most Foolish
 Though need you
  Yours,
  Dev......

Friday, December 25, 2009

CRY..............

I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
Cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got that whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone, I'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears I'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I strayed from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm in this condition
And I've got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed
Cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I shoulda never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give IT to you on purpose
Can't figure out how you stole my heart

My mind is gone, I'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears I'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I strayed from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm in this condition
And I've got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

How did I get here with you, I'll never know
I never meant to let it get so personal
And After all I tried to do to stay away from love with you
I'm broken hearted, I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm in this condition
And I've got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm in this condition
And I've got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

All my life...

"I Love You"

The snow, so peaceful and serene,
caressed by the soft moonlight,
gave magical feelings to the night.

The soft blue glow,
the lovers' words that then did flow,
their lips closer and closer
until, locked in the throes
of a passionate embrace,
he decided to express his feelings,
to keep her safe.

He whispered softly,
his words like music to her ears,
"I Love You,"
and her response the same,
heard like the gentle breeze,
"And I, love you, forever."

That was the night they promised
to be together through everything,
each to care for the other when old and gray.
A lovers' pact
the most likely to last.

"We........."

When it comes to lovin' couples,
don't we make the perfect pair-
There's romance, love, and laughter
in the friendship that we share.
We care enough to listen,
to trust and understand.
To build a life together,
side by side and hand in hand.
We both know that we're lucky
and we've got a good thing going.
Through ups and downs
and give and take,
our love just keeps on growing...
'Cause I bring out the best in you,
and you the best in me-
I guess it takes the two of us
to make the perfect "we."

I am............

I am a very inquisitive person
I’m just that kind of guy
My favorite sign is a question mark
My favorite word is “Why”
I don’t always get the answer, or even an answer
But I never fail to try
Sometimes my answers are questions
My why begets a why, begets a why, begets a “Why?”
Why do I dream of me walking?
When in my dreams I can fly?
And no matter how I soar,
Why can’t I touch the sky?
I wear glasses to look in the mirror
Why can’t I look me in the eye?
And why is it every time I do
I smile, I look away and I sigh?
Is it because I don’t like what I see?
Or maybe I am just “naturally shy”?
Nope, that’s not true.
Though it’s not often I tell a lie
I look away in disgust of what I see
Can I help it if my standards are that high?!
They slipped quite a bit of late
I used to be a perfectionist in days gone by
I know I have changed. All things change
Only, why?
Yea, and why is it I no longer cry when I’m hurt?
Is it because now it even hurts to cry?

All I need is you

All I need is you

Days seems so slow
Even the clock that runs so fast..
I don’t know why
But maybe its just so hard to wait for you….

Waiting for you since the start
That we have trusted each other
For the love that is so immense
That can move even the highest mountain…

My heart that always says
You are my everything
Because you are all that I am dreaming
And all that I am hoping for

Now that we have one another
So near ‘coz of the feelings that we have
Yet so far for we can’t still be with each other
Making my heart even hungered for your love….

“I FOUND YOU”

I FOUND YOU
Love can be,
found in the wormth of a kiss,in a touch
or a lingering embrace….
Love can be
found in a sweet,tender glance or a
smile that laughts up the face…
Love can be
found in words softly spoken,in
comfertable silence too….
Love can be
found in any number of ways…
And I FOUND LOVE
when…..

“I FOUND YOU”