***************,
It was surprising that you asked me to write a letter,
actually I was thinking about the same for last few months.
You may say mere coincidence but I will say surprise package
of 2013.....
To write and what to write is most important. I tried
writing to you but nothing is helping me to write something heart out.
Many letters I had typed but all in vain but at last now,
mean around 5am with sun is about to rise...my writing actually dawned....I
don't know whether I am making any sense to you or not but hope you understand
my inability of writing which can bring smile on your face...
I know you are laughing at me and my foolishness but still I
cannot stop my emotions to come out...though I know there is no value to
emotions in anyone’s life...though I don't see you in the bitchy girls
clan.....
You know I started becoming very nostalgic.....
Digitex...still remember the first sight and your soft
touch... (Lake Kalibarir prosad which I gave you)
I was kind of shaky after seeing...your dreamy eyes made me
see the dream...leave it I know its too much melodramatic and you are simply
laughing...still I am happy that I made you laugh at least which I want to do forever and
ever....Forever...lol..too hard for you to see yourself with me or what?? I
know you don't...
I remember the first time I met you, it was one of the best
moments of my life and I thank god for giving me such a exquisite moment. When
I saw you, a thoroughly rough with severe attitude problem especially spoil
brat.....slowly I got to know an angel but a quiet lady though I think you are
a chatter box who seemed to be in a similar plight, something out of this
world, some force of attraction gave me the courage and initiative to approach
you. I couldn't understand it then, but I am glad that I did talk to you
then.(Silver Sand..)
I've been waiting to say all these and even more to you
since a long time. It might surprise you that I accepted your wish writing to
you; but you know, sometimes where there is too much to say, a man prefers
writing to all else so do I.
You know, ours is a very special relationship. We both know
how hopelessly we're in need for each other without ever saying so. Its been
tacitly accepted by both of us without feeling the need to express anything
poetically or melodramatically.
Like a sparkling crystal vase, you are delicate, fragile and
just precious to me. Trust me people must say this when he is trying for
you..but I...you know better...The dark, deep eyes set in contrast to the fair
face have the depth and gleam that makes me drown myself in them. I love to
fight with you and hate you every second and don't wanna miss your kiddish
nature.
I couldn't understand why you were not special to me in my
time? But the time we spent together was so enchanting that each moment without
you is like epoch. I only know how difficult it was for me to restrain myself
from rushing away from you so that you be saved...lol...and to concentrate on
my work.
Good good...hasle yaar...aaj tujhe chance mila hain...
In fact, whenever this tension had reached the crescendo, I
called you up half-afraid that you would be angry over my disturbing you so as
not to miss a chance to talk to you....
There was something else about you, though you were not
readily homely types. Yet you seemed to tell me everything about you, your
home, family, your x..asses and axes and your naive feelings about them and
work. I was your emotional support which I hope so...lol...and seemed to occupy
a unique and special place in your heart of hatred for me....lol..... When you
cried out your grief’s and sorrows into my bosom, the feeling of my being close
to you, engulfing you in my arms seemed to make you feel safe and secure where
you use to get pissed drunk. I felt extremely happy and proud to give you this
support and comfort because I knew you need this...hope you actually
needed.....
And somewhere along the way, I opened up without even
realizing so and anything that made me happy or sad, I couldn't wait to share
it with you. We both knew it when we slowly developed this deep and
intellectual insanity. It was so enchanting and it completely pulled us into
this whirling center.
It gives me a great pride to show the world how madly I am
in ???? with you my petite delicate bitch. I am immensely satisfied that I care
for a girl who makes me lose myself in her arms. My cherished moments are our
long walks under the pocha garom during 2012 summer from infinity to 206 bus
stand(kheya)....you were not well...though didn't stop for a second..and I
walked with you for many many moonlit nights, under the clouds of my world with
you and the soothing gaze of the stars. I'm madly in hatred with a
girl...lol... who completely amalgamates herself with me. I love the way she
sparkles at my achievements, and the sheer delight that creeps through her when
she is swept of her feet. I like that most special lady in the world... Oh! I
need you, my sweet heart kinky bitch...waiting for your ph# call...because I
know u will never write but you will call preferably, since you gotta chance to
bitch about me in front of me...... Pleasure making you smile.
Most Unfaithful
Most Unreliable
Most Foolish
Though need you
Yours,
Dev......
